Nothing Was Wrong

What if change is the catalyst that would set you on the road to everything you want? What if in order for your goals and visions to come to you, a change in path needs to happen to allow for that? To make space for that? And, in order for this catalyst of change to occur, nothing was wrong?

Here’s how my experience of change when nothing was wrong came to be…

I remember it vividly and I can still sense what it felt like. It was a typical workday for me in my practice as a massage therapist. I was at my massage table working on one of my amazing longtime clients with whom I felt an amazing connection.

Her neck and shoulders were really tight that day. As I was noticing where the tightness was in her body, and assessing how I could help her gain more movement, I suddenly felt my massage room getting smaller. It was morphing right in front of my eyes into this tiny speck. The furniture was moving and nothing fit in the room anymore. I could feel the smallness, the tightness of the small space closing in on me as it rode up my back and neck and tipped over, like a heavy weight wrapping and dripping over my shoulders.

It was the strangest experience I had ever had up until that moment. I couldn’t explain it.

After about a minute of my massage office morphing in front of my eyes, I felt this sensation wash over me like I was too big for my space. I felt like I was a giant in a little toddler’s playset.

I knew at that moment I had to move out of my office space.

I had never felt this way about my space before. In fact, it was the opposite. I loved where I was. My space had always felt cozy and quaint to me, a safe space for my clients to come.

I felt my logical brain start to take over as I navigated thoughts of… Wait, nothing is wrong, I can’t make this change.

I needed a reason. A reason outside of myself. A reason other than the experience that I had just had where I received my knowing that I was moving. And then I asked myself,

is it “okay “ to make a change when nothing is wrong?

The whirlwind of thoughts began of Where would I go? How could I move again?

I had just picked up and moved my office space 10 months prior. I was afraid people were going to be upset with me. That they would ask me, “Now why are you moving?” I was afraid my clients were going to think I was this flighty massage therapist who just moved from place to place whenever the feeling struck her.

What if people asking you why you are making this change and their need for a reason is really a sign of their own uncomfortableness with change, AND that energy is not yours?

Despite having these thoughts, my brain was already navigating the process and the steps that would happen next to begin the move and ALL of the uncomfortableness of “putting others out” that goes with that.

I was worried my office manager was going to have a hard time finding another person to rent the space. I was worried about what an inconvenience that would be to her. And then, as if right on cue, I felt myself navigating feelings of guilt, of feeling selfish, and ungrateful for the amazing office space that I was already in.

Nothing was wrong. Everything was fine. Why the hell did I want to make this change? All I kept hearing in my mind was the old adage of “if it’s not broken, don’t fix it.”

All of these swirling thoughts were showing up during my client’s massage session. I needed to focus. I took a deep breath, recentered myself, and finished the massage.

It was like my client had been in my mind with me because when I got up to leave the room so she could change, she sat up and said, “I don’t know why I’m telling you this, but I’m going to trust my gut and follow this knowing that is coming through. I have someone that you have to meet.”

She asked me, “Do you know Dr. Tim? He is a Naturopath who is located less than 1,000 feet from your office.” I said. “No, I have never heard of him.” She gave me his address, which was literally across the street. She said, “He has a beautiful office space that I think you will love.”

I remember thinking okay, now this is 100% crazy!! My massage room just morphed in front of my eyes, I just had this insane knowing that I have to move, I was just thinking where am I going to go, and now my amazing massage client shares with me about this Naturopath that is possibly looking for a massage therapist in his office?

This was a lot of possible change within a 60-minute massage.

After my client left, I decided to go over to Dr. Tim’s office and check it out.

I was navigating so many emotions and feelings and still there was this part of me that just knew that this change was necessary.

I KNEW that this change was calling me forward. I knew that despite the internal tug of war that I was feeling so deeply inside of me that there was something stronger pulling me forward to move.

I had never considered change to be the catalyst for all that you desire to show up and come into your life.

I didn’t have anything to go on except for my intuition, and these strong feelings that were guiding me forward.

I don’t think I fully believed that I was actually going to make the move.

I went to meet Dr. Tim. I felt an instant connection, and he was looking for a massage therapist.

Shit, now what?

I asked him if he would mind terribly showing me the room that was available; he agreed.

I loved the room; it was the exact opposite of everything I had and I loved it!

Shit, it’s perfect. Now what?

I took the leap.

I took a risk.

I went ALL in.

I moved in 30 days later.

It was scary, and following the feeling, the knowing in my body, making the change without something being wrong was exactly my next step.

It didn’t take long for me to see why I had been led to this new space and to Dr. Tim. He was so kind, caring, and respectful. He would literally tiptoe and whisper around the office when I was with my clients so that we would not be disturbed. (Noise had been an issue for me at every other office space I had rented.)

Then, shortly after the move, even more clarity came in as I began to transition from massage therapy to being a BodyMind Coach. Plus, I had so many interests and ideas that I wanted to use to support my amazing clients with and before this new office space, I had no idea how I was going to do it.

I wanted to hold vision board and manifesting workshops, so Dr. Tim offered up his space to me free of additional charge.

He shared my newsletters for whatever I was working on to his large email list to help spread the word of what I was offering.

He helped me write copy for my signs and banners, connected me to his sign rental person, helped me organize my own email list, and even set up my online scheduler. Whatever I needed, Dr. Tim was there with excited support.

He even has the most amazing collection of teas! When I would come in to work many mornings, on my little table next to my sheets and supply closet, he would have a cup of hot tea and a cookie and a little note from him waiting for me!!

It was an incredible move and I am so glad that I got out of my own way and allowed myself to receive even more than I already had or could even imagine!!

I went from “nothing is wrong” and “everything is fine”, to everything is fabulous, thriving, and expansive!

I was able to receive so much more than I already had because I was willing to release it. I wasn’t attached to where I was. I was willing to take a risk which gratefully was softened by my intuition, so that I could have what I truly desired even if I didn’t fully know what that was yet.

It was in the invitation to release what I already had that I was able to make space for what I really wanted. Having the invitation to have more space invited me into having more space in my business and allowing more things to come in for both myself and for my clients.

The universe knew what was coming, what I was going to be needing, and did her thing of “moving me” and connecting me with an amazing person and space that would help me get going on the path to helping, supporting, and serving others.

What might be possible if instead of looking for what’s wrong, or what needs to be corrected, instead, we replaced that with looking for how could this situation be even better?

Has there been a time when you have wanted to make a change, but nothing was wrong?

Is there something that you’re feeling your intuition is calling you to release so that you can gain what you really want?

These questions allow you to shift from everything is fine, which is survival mode, to exploring how a situation could be even better, which shifts the mindset into thriving mode. I want to thrive. How about you?

what might intuition call you to release to gain what you really want?